I'm blond

I'm a blondy now. I can't say I've exactly "had more fun" yet as a result. But I do like it on me.

Dear Tiddlywinks...

I've never had a great Valentines... but today tops the cake. Last night you died. I hope you didn't experience too much pain. I didn't cry yet, I guess I've already accepted it, or I'm in denial. You were such a special bunny. I think you were everyone's favorite but we didn't want to offend the others so we kinda kept that a secret. I'm glad you had a happy life, even if it was only 2 years. You survived death once, at birth only you and your brother survived out of 7 babies. Then your mother didn't want to nurse you so we fed you goat milk until you started eating hay and pellets. Lanaya loved you most I think. She gave your brother and you your names. We weighed you all the time to make sure you were growing up healthy. You were always a couple ounces smaller than your brother, but you were a survivor. You had a third sibling that survived birth but only lived about 3 days. I was scared the rest of you wouldn't make it either, but you and your brother stuck together and made it. You were best buds until maybe half a year, then you got you own cages. I loved holding you and watching you hop and leap around the room or the yard. I loved ticking your ears and you'd shake your head to show me it annoyed you. I don't know what else to say. You'll always hold a special place in my heart along with Jeffery, Chloe and Emile. RIP Tiddles.

College letters...

With my SAT score only being 1550, with a 590 Reading, 450 Math, 510 Writing; I didn't expect any scholarships. I don't even know my GPA but it's, not to brag, pretty good. lol I did get a D in Algebra back in 9th grade, but that was my only D. Pretty much everything else I got As or some Bs. And this year, all As, even buisness math course which I hated!! lol. So I was suprised to get a call this afternoon from Geneva saying I got a $32,000 academic scholarship. Yay! It looks like this is where the Lord is leading. But I still haven't made up my mind if I am going to Geneva college, Edinboro or Kutztown. Just keep researching, praying and thinking what will be best. toodles!

my life in February 2011...

There are lots of new things going on this month. I got accepted to Edinoboro University. My dad will be starting at his job in NY the end of the month. My little sister got her first report card and did excellent. Today, I've been in school for 103 days this school year. I wish I could say I'm excited about change and of all the things I'm looking forward to. But really I feel stuck in time and reluctant to let go. I'm really gonna miss my friends here. But it'll be a comfort to know they aren't thousands of miles away, only a hundred or so. And I really hope we keep in touch. You never know though. I'm also going to miss our bunnies. We have to find homes for a couple of them, and I'll have to leave my gerbils behind when I go to college too. When you think about it, the schoolwork and all isn't the hardest adjustment to college life I'll have, it'll be the enviroment. Let's hope and pray I don't change too much. I'm praying I select the college that's right for me.

braces coming off soon! horray!!!

I'm getting my braces off April 19th which is like 11 weeks from now. I don't have to wear elastics anymore so the worst is over. I can't wait!!! I really wanna get those crest whitening strips on and have my teeth nice and white! :)
And I got green links on the top to keep the front too teeth from having a gap. I wanted to have them for st. patrick's day, but they might come off before then. I might dye my hair green though. :) Green is my favorite color.

Ancient History, Beowulf

I am not completely sure if what I wrote about when Beowulf was around is completely true. There is little known about when it actually occurred or was written. I'm not very good at dates and stuff but I think my teacher said something about the year 950. But I am actually clueless whether that means B.C. or A.D. So go ahead, make fun. Unless you've never even read the poem, then you have no right to make fun. hehe.
"Its composition by an anonymous Anglo-Saxon poet is dated between the 8th[3][4] and the early 11th century.[5] It fell into oblivion for many centuries, and its existence did not become widely known again until it was printed in 1815."
For more information: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beowulf

Today I finished reading and writing a paper on how it compares to the movie The 13th Warrior. If you like blood and guts and Swedish knight stuff from around 950 B.C. you'll enjoy the movie. If you like long poems written by a monk, you're gonna love the book. It had God all throughout the peom, which is sort of ironic because these viking-type Swedes, also known as Geats in the book, probably worshiped norse gods and other things. I'm not an expert on it. I did enjoy the poem, it's a nice change from the literature of our day. This could very well be the first hero ever in history. There is a movie called Beowulf, but I don't recommend you watch it, I heard it does a terrible job of telling Beowulf's story. But if you hate reading that much, and just want a typical hero type film, go for it. But I would much rather see you go to youtube and watch The 13th Warrior. Antonio Banderas is the star in that movie and it's quite funny at times.

hamsters and gerbils and chipmunks, oh my!

baby chipmunk

This is what I dreamed about last night, among other rodents. I was walking through a zoo of cages with rodents inside. I am really gonna miss my animals when I go off to college. The only animal I'll be able to keep at college would be fish, so maybe I'll get myself a betta fish for company since they're easier to transport and care for.

baby chinchillas

Got Braces?

Yes, I still do. :( I went in today and when the technician saw my bite she gasped and like jumped back... a little dramatically. Apparently my bite is still bad. The two middle bottom teeth are being stubborn so they took off the brackets and re-positioned them so that should help. I'm doubling up on the elastics, like they just told me to... I never thought to do that before!

My younger sister got her braces off today. She got them put on the same exact day as me too! Now she's wearing positioners and she can't talk, unless you think grunting loudly is talking. LOL. I'm guessing maybe it will be a bit more quiet around here without her talking, unless she continues to grunt loudly instead of talking.

I am determined to get mine off before summer!!! Before graduation!!!!! It should only take a couple more months, I'm guessing. But I still don't know exactly when they're coming off yet. It's been 20 months!!! I wonder if my teeth will feel naked when they all come off. Going back in 7 weeks to get a thicker wire on. Please keep your fingers crossed for me and wish me luck!

Before braces in 2008:

Now:

being a teenager ....

When you think of teenagers, what do you think of? Rebellion, changing moods, laziness, minimum wage, late nights, partying, theft, risk taking, maybe even drinking and drugs? Well, I am one of the teenagers who don't think people should sterotype us like that. Even though it is true that this generation is the most corrupt in history, there are those who are different.

I have been raised a Christian but didn't accept Christ into my life until I was 12 and didn't take it very seriously until age 15. But then after I was baptised at 15 the devil came harder then ever after me. I got a summer job lifeguarding and basically went through the motions. I never went to work instead of church, but when I was in church I felt myself wishing I was at work or hanging out with my work buddies instead. I was a 16 year old life guard with guys hitting on me every day. I was looking great on the outside, but inside, I was a mess. I wanted a bf even though I knew the guys at work weren't christian, besides the fact I knew I was too young anyway for something serious. I just wanted to have fun. So I was just going through the motions of being a Christian. I skipped Bible camp that year as I had the previous year. I read my bible sometimes but didn't gain anything from it because I didn't read it prayerfully. The next year I went to a week of bible camp, and that was a real turning point for me. I realized that God really did love me even though I thought I wasen't good enough. It's an upward journey that I'm still traveling. I ensourage you to go aganist the flow. Be one of those teenagers who people look at and say, there's something different about them.

watching winnie the pooh....

Falling from a tree is just like rolling out of bed

Piglet: really?

Tigger: except for the splat at the end, they're practically similar.

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In times like this, Christopher Robin said I just have to remember, you're taller than a beam? you're slower than whipped cream?

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What's donkey boy saying? I said ouch. AHHHHHHH [and they all fall because donkey let go]

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he'd say... that rabbit just can't function in this humidity!!

remember what? I forget, but it's something like: you're smarter when you're pink! Does that help?

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piglet: seee sa sa sa sa skee skaa skaa ska

rabbit: try to be more specific!

piglet: skull

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if each one went where the other wasen't

and each one was where the other wasen't

what I mean to say is perhaps we should split up.

Rabbit: pooh, what a great idea!

Pooh: thank you, for whatever it was I said.

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Rabbit: I'd have to figure it out by myself, from scratch! Can I do that?

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rabbit: that owl! I knew skull had another y in it

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to be fair to us both, I should munch twice as much.

But then it would only last half as long.

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and we looked and looked but every place we looked was one of the places you weren't.

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December... december

Yesterday I spent the day with my friend Gwyn and we went to the PACYBER VC fair. We got to meet most of our virtual classroom teachers. =] We even stopped at taco bell on the way home. The previous two nights I slept over at her house and we watched a movie each night. We watched Pirates of the Caribbean and Nanny Mcfee. I love both of those movies. :) Looking at colleges for me to go to!!! Already applied to Kutztown and Edinboro. Looking at about 7 in total. Just found out that Mansfield is only about a half hour from where we're gonna be moving. Hopefully we can visit there some weekend soon!!! I wanna visit all these places to see what their campus is like, especially the dorm life. But I guess the most important thing for me is to make sure Special Education is for me. I really think it is, and most of the people I talk to about it think I'd be great at it too. Christmas is only 10 days away.... are you serious!!! I haven't bought any presents yet. It's gonna be a low-key holiday. I am really looking forward to Dec 29-Jan 2 which is when GYC is! I'm going to the Generation of Youth for Christ conference. Check it out: gycweb.org

My own gerbils

I have had Remy for a few years. He had a buddy Amile that died maybe 9 months ago. Then we wanted to try again to mate him, so my friend gave me her gerbil Sweetpea. Either Amile [formally Ruby] AND sweet pea are actually both boys.... or Remy is sterile. Either way, they're great friends. When we first got Remy he was very shy, plus he was left alone for a few weeks at the pet store. My sister had bought both of his brothers. We felt sorry for him, so I adopted him and worked hard to bond with him and have him bond with Amile. He eventually stopped peeing on my hand and biting. He never bit hard enough to make me bleed though. They do it when they're scared or curious. Sweet pea and Remy are both still timid, but still curious like most gerbils and not vicious.

Snowball Dance 2010

[last names removed for privacy]

Ok so we had fun and we were beautiful... but we didn't meet any cool guys. =[ Mandy asked like 4 guys and they all said no!!!! [stupid guysss] Gwyn danced with a dork and I danced with his little brother... that only lasted a minute then I was like here's my sister, dance with her and I ran off to the bathroom. lol. Needless to say... he danced worse than me. LOL

So dances in my opinion lose most of the fun if the whole time you're wondering if you're even gonna dance with a nice guy or not. So for prom... I'm not going unless somehow I get a date. That's not gonna be easy cuz I know like NO guys my age... I would even do a blind date if someone knew someone who would go with me.

first day of work.

I had a great first day of work at bear rock junction corn maze. Got a tour of the kitchen and made some hotdogs and snowcones. Learned the basics of the register. So yeah it was slow at first but I'm sure in the coming weeks it'll be less boring. This yearthe maze is a turtle surfing with dolphins.

big purse = smaller girl???

What do you think.... girls wear big purses to make themselves look smaller or because they simply have a lot of things? Ashley & Vanessa

BLOOD bloodyblood

Guess what ... my blood type is O-.... and around here apparently there have been a lot of accidents. So the blood bank is low on blood. But... I was at the center today. But I was just 2points low on iron!!! Stupid egg and yogurt bfst!!! Should have had raisens... but the moths had got into them... again. Keeping them in the fridge now.... got cantalope and oranges and grapefruit!!! Hopefully go again after school mon. Yep thats right School starts MONDAY!!! Wayyyyy too soon. Didn't even go to the ocean or ANYTHING this year... feel bored. Hope I get the job at the corn maze!!! :D l8r dude!

guinea pigs!!! a topic i adore

Saw the most CUTE guinea pigs for free at the store today. I'm glad they found a good home. One was prego :D no wonder someone sent them off! Baby guineas are the CUTEST!!! they aren't even hairless when they're born. can you imagine the little puffle lumps! The last one there they are only 1 day old. I havent had any since I was 10. They are amazing pets! My sister's named Chester would go from the living room... around the corner... jump up stairs and into his cage which was 1 ft off the ground! Sadly I think he got ringworm and we gave him away. Mine i name Love because on her bottom she had a black shaped heart. I loved her to no end! They were only $5 each at a special animal auction. We had gone there looking for hamsters but found none... so guinea pigs were the next best thing! My mom even went back the next month and got a third cailco one we named callie rose. We took so many pics of them... never got em developed though. We took more pics of our animals then of people! lol kinda ridiculous. I wanna get some again sometime... maybe if someone is tired of theirs or something. But I got my hands full at the moment with gerbils... soon to be parents! Anyone want a gerbil? free!

some of my fave things...

wendy's frosties

pizza w/olives [this particular one made by my friend gwyn]

reading.... like my new fave book! :D

sleeping of course!

august

hope i can handle this. man im tired. school starts in 4 days. can hardly believe it. Applied for a job down the road at the mini-golf/corn maze. feels like i should have gone on a vacation... but no its almost sepetember and that means almost winter... almost spring... almost next summer and I'll have to make a decision. If I take a year off and do my own things... or go to college. The goal for me becoming a teacher is starting to become kinda overwhelming. So I'm leaning towards becoming a sonogram technician. It'll make everyone happy and plus its only 2 years of school and it... pays well. Right now ... this moment... I'm just focusing on getting through this year. Unpleasent suprise today... wanna talk to my new friend Heather... never did get together this summer. oh and RIP Heather. I remember about this time last year I was also making a huge decision. I kept putting it off... but i finally did it. Time does heal. Just remember that. oh and here is a rhyme i made up today.
hamster on my lap. wanna take a nap. i hear a scream . i just wanna dream.